Premonitions or visions

Since the last big shift of energy I have had numerous premonitions which is unusual.  Most are like waking dreams - I see flashes of pictures that are in some order but I feel emotions that are overwhelming and nearly uncontrollable.  I can usually sense when they are coming which has helped me when I am driving (really has been helpful).  However the past few weeks I am not getting any advanced notice which hasn't been a good thing.  I have learned to fight them so that I don't get in an accident or something but even that doesn't make them subside.  A few weeks ago I was run off the road into a turn lane so I had to take a back way through a subdivision.  Turned out that was a really great thing because I couldn't control the premonition that came flying at me.  I had three friends that were very different emotions - one was overly happy and jumping for joy (literally), one was happy, excited, nervous, and uncomfortable (she had an engagement ring on), and the last one was terrifyingly sad and distraught.  The visions were not something I could see through (like a hologram) but were really solid and right in front of me.  I was fortunate that I could pull over easily and deal with the vision.

• The happiness was easy - I was laughing very hard to the point I was crying.  This particular friend was nearly to the point of doing backflips and that is so not like her.  Not because I haven't seen her happy but because it was like watching an excited 12 year old girl who gets to go to her favourite band concert.  Her eyes and soul were dancing and twirling around.  It was very enjoyable.
• The second one was a little tougher - mainly because she is so strong and I have never known her to be nervous like that nor have I ever known her to feel uncomfortable to the point of wanting to run.  Her emotions were conflicting and each was strong.  Her eyes were nervous and scared but her soul was happy and excited.  It was a mix of emotions which was like a kick in the gut.  
• The third one was heartbreaking - I sat crying uncontrollably on the side of the road.  I felt like my heart was ripped out and stomped on.  I felt like I had been tossed aside, rolled over, beaten, bruised...  Obviously her emotions were the most difficult to deal with - the most painful and probably the one that has affected me the most.  Her eyes were hollow, dark, sad, empty...  gut wrenching.

I sat there for a bit to get my emotions under control so that I could drive.  When I finally got home I took time to meditate on the vision and ask for guidance.  Funny how sometimes this helps more than anything - reflecting on the experience through meditation.

For my friend that was overly happy - I knew something good was coming her way that would make her giddy like a school girl.  I can't wait to see when that occurs because she so deserves it.

For my friend that was uncomfortable and excited - I think she will be dating soon and it will make her happy but (like me) she is a bit of a loner so giving up your personal space and freedom makes you uncomfortable.  Part of the reason we get along so well is we feel each others needs and emotions.  I don't smother her or her with me but if either of us needs the other we just know it and drop everything to be there.  Seeing her happy was awesome but seeing her uncomfortable took my breath away.  She deserves to be happy and content in a relationship that completes her and I do see that happening but it will only happen if she lets it happen.

For my friend that was heartbroken - this one hurt me deeply for many reasons.  I meditated on this part of the vision the longest because it was so painful and I needed to understand it.  During my meditation I saw the occurrence which put her over the edge.  It was heartbreaking, traitorous, demeaning, demoralizing... it is no wonder she thought her soul was torn to shreds.

Meditating on each friend and asking for guidance and assistance from the Divine helped me to get past this vision.  The fact that I still look at each of them and feel the emotions from the vision - well that's a different story.  It will take me a bit to get past the emotions when I see them.  The first two are not as difficult to deal with as the last.  The last one is hard on me for several reasons.  We are connected and so when she is unhappy I can feel it - even miles and miles away.  She tells me she is happy but I know she isn't.  Nevertheless I am being supportive and understanding because it is not my relationship that is the issue - it is hers.  Each one of us have to learn to deal with things on our own - it is part of our lesson in this lifetime.  Her biggest lesson is self-love and when she gets past things and truly loves herself everything else will fall into place for her.  I was recently excited about the prospect of spending a few hours just kicking back and relaxing with her, doing a card reading for her, talking through some things - but we didn't get the opportunity because things came up.  I understand completely but cannot lie - it hurt a bit to feel rejected (which was totally not the case).  I spent a few minutes meditating on why I felt like that.  I let it go and moved on, knowing that if my vision comes true I will be needed to help her get things back on track.

I have noticed the intensity of the visions lately more than anything.  The intensity of which I feel them, when they occur, how frequently I see the same one - etc.   I have had to pay a lot more attention to things because they are so intense.  But the ones that repeat are the easiest to remember.  The one I told you about from above I have had 12 times in the past two weeks.  Dealing with the emotions are a lot easier now and I don't need to meditate on them near as much.  I am not really sure if all this is happening because of the energy lately or because I have opened up a bit more.

Love, peace and happiness to you - today and every day.