Empaths and depression

Simply put - empaths pick up other peoples emotions and usually without knowing.  The thing is that when an empath does realize that the depression that is eating at them isn't completely theirs - they usually try to figure out where it came from rather than get rid of it.  I have spent the past few months wallowing in a depressive state and fighting through it.  The problem I have is I cannot figure out where I got it from.  I have a beautiful grandson who smiles at me and gives me joy.  I am closer to my daughter now that she is a mom herself.  I have nothing to really be depressed about and yet I am so very depressed.  I hide it well though but perhaps that is years of experience. 

Now the goal is to get rid of it.  I have prayed, asked for assistance from the Divine, received Reiki and chakra realignment, and meditated with forgiveness.  I have asked my guides for assistance but have been told that it is my current lesson to learn.  I have isolated myself as best I can from people but when I do run into people I put on my mask so they don't notice. 

Why is it so hard to get rid of depression? 
Shouldn't you be able to combat it with joy? 
Shouldn't you be able to let it go? 

I continue to struggle to get rid of the depression but I have made plans with friends to have fun which should help.  I continue to thrust myself into joyful situations so that I can feel the love and joy of others.  I force myself to exercise more, even though I feel mentally and physically drained.  I see the light at the end of this and yet I still dwell on what started it.  I am always trying to figure out why things happen.  I think too much obviously - which may add to my depression in the long run.

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